A little bit of seriousness

I'm not sure if anyone has ever dealt with someone with an addiction, but I feel like it is almost a death. Our family has been through the ringer and is still there with a glimpse of hope in sight. I have felt like an only child now for many years with the exception being that a lot of the time my problems came in a close second to my sister's. I was not allowed to have problems because hers often overshadowed mine. And, that's ok. I just want my sister back. I want her to know my son and my son to know her. And right now, he has no clue who she is. She has missed out on 2 wonderful years of being an aunt to a precious little boy. Not to mention a sister that I could call to complain about what I thought were "real" problems of mine at the time, someone who knows you better than anyone else...literally, your other half, one I can hang out with or spend a weekend at the beach, shop with, all those little things that sisters do and thrive on. I have not had that in a long time. Part of me is so angry about everything. But, I have to think her problem is bigger than one she can fix on her own. She has been given another gift or chance which is an offer to enter a treatment program called Teen Challenge. It is Christian based and a year long AND they have agreed to take her for free...it is not cheap. I hope this is an answer to prayers that have been sent up for a long, long time. I need and want a sister and my parents want a daughter...not one but two.

Gunky the Monkey

Reis had named his monkey that we NEVER go anywhere without "Gunky." It is so cute. He is starting to develop his own personality sometimes bad but for the most part he is pretty good. Although I wonder, is it normal for toddlers to sleep a lot at this age? By no means am I complaining but he sleeps a lot. Today he got up at 8:30 and I put him down for a nap around 1 and he didn't get up until 4:15...crazy! I am about to put him to bed and it's 8 so he gets his 12 hours in for sure. And, he goes through phases where he eats and then doesn't. I swear he has been 23 pounds for a year now...so tall and thin. But, I have to say, he is pretty darn cute.

Alan's mom took this pic and had it made as wall art with no frame for our new house...I had a fit.

Nothing to blog about

I haven't been feeling "bloggy" these days. Nothing exciting here really. We have moved and are settling in. My mom has been here for the past couple days but is headed back today. I told her she should buy the place next to us and be my full time nanny. I don't know that it will ever happen. According to her, we live in the "big city" and everything is confusing to her. I am proud she made it down here for the second time although it was quite interesting. I told her to call me when she got off the exit. I didn't think she would have to hang up the phone every time she had to switch lanes...it was pretty funny.

Alan went to Ft. Lauderdale this past weekend to see his family. He won $300 at the Hard Rock playing black jack. I told him that was payment for him being able to go out and me being home. I guess because we are mothers we will forever be the primary caretakers but sometimes it can be a little frustrating because you just want to get away too. It's not that easy though. It seems like it's a given that we take care of the little ones. Some days can be really challenging. I guess it comes with the age but you feel like pulling your hair out at times. I'm sure all mothers can relate. Anyway, hope all is well with everyone in blog land:)

This is pretty good

Subject: Installing a Husband...

INSTALLING A HUSBAND:

Dear Tech Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a distinct slow down in overall system performance, particularly in the flower and jewelry applications, which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.

In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, and then installed undesirable programs such as NASCAR 6.0, NFL 5.1 and Golf Clubs 4.1.

Conversation 8.0 no longer runs, and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system.
Please note that I have tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.

What can I do?

Signed,
Desperate.



DEAR DESPERATE,

First, keep in mind, Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while Husband 1.0 is an operating system.

Please enter command: ithoughtyoulovedme.HTML and try to download Tears 6.2 and do not forget to install the Guilt 3.0 update. If that application works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewelry 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.

However, remember, overuse of the above application can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Beer 6.1. Please note that Beer 6.1 is a very bad program that will download the Farting and Snoring Loudly Beta.

Whatever you do, DO NOT under any circumstances install Mother-In-Law 1.0 (it runs a virus in the background that will eventually seize control of all your systems resources.)

In addition, please do not attempt to reinstall the Boyfriend 5.0 program. These are unsupported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.

In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might consider buying additional software to improve memory and performance. We recommend Cooking 3.0 and Hot Lingerie 7.7.

Good Luck!

Tech Support

Moving sucks and I hate it...... But I really like my new house.

Some of the colors are hard to see in the pics. The office is a gray color, not purple like I think it looks in the picture. The painting and moving are done. Now I just need a little decor.

Tomorrow

Let the madness begin. We are closing tomorrow at 1 and Alan's parents are coming down to help us. Actually, his dad is going to be the greatest and do all of our painting. I guess that means I need to get my butt in gear and start going through stuff which I haven't. I have been sick since Monday with the whole sore throat and stuffy nose thing, but I woke up this morning and feel much better. I feel bad for Reis because he's been cooped up in the house with me this week while I've been feeling like crap. Hopefully, this weekend we can take him swimming or to the beach.

It's funny, but the saying, "It's a small world" is so true. Alan's company hired "a new guy" from Virginia and they invited us over last Saturday to swim and bbq. Come to find out, he and his wife moved from Alexandria, VA down here and his wife and I actually worked right next door to each other in Alexandria. My boss actually owns the building that she worked in. AND, we both have boys that are 3 weeks apart...it's so funny. So, we have mastered a plan to get the boys together to play and swim and then put them down for naps and we will head out to the pool to float, chat, and have some wine. Doesn't sound like a bad plan to me:)

After my mental breakdown at the Dr's office, I went to another doctor that a girl Alan works with recommended. She was having some of the same issues and said that her doctor was really great about listening and trying to figure out a solution which now I can say ditto to that. I saw her on Monday and she agreed that something was not right so she ordered more extensive blood work and I will see her again tomorrow. It was great to have someone that didn't think I was going nuts or just push me out the door with a prescription to fix ONE of the many issues I was having. So hopefully tomorrow I will know more.

Also, is anyone else completely addicted to Bravo's Real Housewives? Everytime a new season starts, I am addicted immediately. I watched New Jersey last night that I had dvr'd and it was really good...I can't help myself.

Any and Everything

Who can resist a good butt shot?

We spent lots of time last week in Grandma's back yard. This was before he got into an ant bed and I about had a heart attack.

I'm glad to be back home after 2 weeks. We close on our townhouse next week and I cannot wait. We had a notice on our door about renewing our lease, and I wanted to take it down to the office and show them my middle finger. If we renewed, our rent would have gone up another $75. So, our mortgage is basically going to be $275 cheaper than what we are paying in rent. That is crazy to me. Sayonara ole apartment...nice knowing ya.

I went to the Dr. yesterday about the results of some blood work I had done. I will probably never go back because I had a mental breakdown in her office and feel like an idiot and secondly, she wanted to put me on cholesterol medicine and would not listen to how I was feeling. I just want to scream, "would someone listen to me." Maybe that's what I am doing now:) I am so exhausted(like 1st trimester kind of tired), feel a little down, have not had what constitutes me being a woman since January, could cry in an instant and then be pissed off at the world, and now, have elevated cholesterol(which I have never had). My mom and sister both had the same problem with their cholesterol which led to them being hypothyroid. I do not feel like myself but since all my tsh levels are "normal" I guess maybe I am just going crazy, but I really don't think so. I feel deeply that something is off. I know exhaustion and mentally feeling crazy can in no way relate but it's like about 4 years ago when I walked around for 2 months with staph(yes, weirdo me got MRSA) and finally one day I could not walk and someone said holy crap, you gotta go to the hospital. Now, I just wish someone would say, "holy crap, you are not going crazy." Anyway, I have another appt. Monday and am going to try to get in with an endocrinologist so we'll see. Until then, that's my rant. I feel better:)